In my lesson with Arthur on Jan 23’ 09, my mind/body/spirit awareness was completely connected and joy splashed into every single cell of my body. I was able to maintain the connection toward the end of our lesson and it was a wonderful blessing. Now I can understand better why Arthur always tells me “This is the place that I ultimately want you to live.” Its joy is beyond what I can imagine.
In the moment, even though I felt happiness within, I was in shock at the same time. The connection came by surprise and came very smoothly which later became a challenge. Right after I hung up, fear slowly crawled in and took over my joy. I felt nervousness and an insecure energy right at the base of the spine (first chakra). Its power remained intense for many hours. Then next 5-6 days after the incident, I battled with this negative energy while I did my regular vocal awareness practice.
Inside my head, I heard a voice say “How dare you think you can become enlightened about vocal awareness so easily!” God!!
The power behind this sentence pushed my daily practice out of wack. I couldn’t tune in to any rituals. My breath was short and I couldn’t infuse the quality of loving energy into it. My practice became rushed and ruff which left me each day with a feeling of unhappiness and confusion. I was very frustrated, but I forced myself stick to my practice and I tried not to take anything personally. Arthur has said that I have to be exceedingly forgiving to myself if I can’t give the same quality to my practice each day.
The situation became easier to deal with after I went back and listened to a record of my lesson. Hearing Arthur’s voice on the tape and applying everything I learned on this particular day has been very helpful in terms of decreasing the strength of this negative energy.
My practice has returned to normal and I have observed that every time I speak by connecting to the root chakra, my voice becomes richer, fuller and feels much lower. The lower tone in my voice makes sometime me feel like I am the only one that can hear it. It’s hard to project the energy outward compare with my usual way of speaking.
